Just a CH Spurgeon quote I want to remember;

“Sometimes we are inclined to think that a very great portion of modern revivalism has been more a curse than a blessing, because it has led thousands to a kind of peace before they have known their misery; restoring the prodigal to the Father’s house, and never making him say, ‘Father, I have sinned.’ How can he be healed who is not sick? or he be satisfied with the bread of life who is not hungry? The old-fashioned sense of sin is despised, and consequently a religion is run up before the foundations are dug out. Everything in this age is shallow. Deep-sea fishing is almost an extinct business so far as men’s souls are concerned. The consequence is that men leap into religion, and then leap out again. Unhumbled they come to the church, unhumbled they remained in it, and unhumbled they go from it.”

Anyone else experience this? I get the bulk of my inspiration while I’m at work. While work does inspire me, what usually gets the juices flowing has more to do with personal interests. Thoughts on God, and theological themes, family, hobbies like my art and bonsai, as well as web sites and design. This is eminently distracting, but more, while at work I have no means to up and take action on these wonderful inspirations.
By the time I get home, I’m tired, It’s late, family and chores need attention and there’s little left of me to be inspired in any fashion except for sleep.

Been working for quite some time on finding a design for my site that I find satisfactory for more than 10min. Another design is in the works, and I’ve already passed through a number of interim designs that never made it up.

Want to more adequately present my work, resume, and portfolio. Also want to be able to put up my doodles and sketches to push me to keep at my drawing. Want to have a venue for getting crap off my chest and out of my skull on any subject, and as I’m finally beginning to get into this blog thing want to reflect that a little more. Would love it to be somewhat of a bockman family portal… Also want a place for recording my little bonsai/penjing hobby. Want it graphic light for fast loading but a great representation of my graphic and design skill, want to seperate design from code in a sweet table-less design controlled by one beautiful cascading style sheet….I want it aaaalllll!!!

Actually most difficult is coming up with a solid identity for myself. I have relatively little trouble with companies or even other people, but I find myself to be so nebulous and hard to pin down as to be impossible to capture in a logo or design. Bugger…

These Resolutions of Jonathan Edwards are fantastic fodder for productive introspection and deserved to be read over and over.

I have some reservations about them though. Three things pop to mind. I tend to be pretty introspective; partly this is indispensable in getting some picture of my depravity, but a greater part I think is a tendancy to selfishness and unnecessary self-consiousness. I would think resolutions like this would make this self-examination and focus on self that much more. -I’m a little sick of looking ‘in’, frankly, and would like to look ‘out’ a little more.
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So I turn on the TV yesterday just after 9pm, flip through the channels, and come across what looks, from the production values, like a movie. I watch for a bit and am floored. It turned out to be ‘Not Another Teen Movie’. For those who don’t know this is a spoof of the teen movies of early 80’s.
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